Monday Monday, so good to me,
Monday morning, it was all I hoped it would be
Oh Monday morning, Monday morning couldn't guarantee
That Monday evening you would still be here with me.
Monday Monday, can't trust that day,
Monday Monday, sometimes it just turns out that way
Oh Monday morning, you gave me no warning of what was to be
Oh Monday Monday, how you could leave and not take me.
I asked them "do you still need to talk about whatever was bothering you on Saturday night?" They said they did... so you know what my "obviously uncool & selfish" self did? I told them "well, I hope you find someone that gives a shit, because I no longer do. I've put up with you, for YEARS, calling me at all hours to discuss crap that most normal people really couldn't give a flying fuck about, but I felt bad, I thought you just needed someone to listen, and I was willing to be that friend. I'm not willing to be that friend anymore. In fact I don't think I'm willing to be your friend at all. You know, since I'm such an "obviously uncool and selfish" person you should have already known this about me" .... and then I just *click* hung up.
I then mentally made a check mark on my list of things I wanted to change in 2011, and a few tears fell as I did it. They were a friend for many years, and we did have some good times together, but... yeah... no real friend should treat another the way they treated me. Of course me just hanging up on them and being rude as hell probably didn't help, but I was pissed off. Wouldn't you be? Please tell me I wasn't being irrational. (Maybe I should have just said "know what? Start a blog, bitch about things to your heart's content... someone is bound to read it"....)
Every other day, every other day,
Every other day of the week is fine, yeah
But whenever Monday comes, but whenever Monday comes
You can find me cryin' all of the time
It's one of those things that, in theory, sounds so easy. "Out with the old, in with the new".... it's not that easy... but I'm trying.
Monday Monday, ...
Today I will focus. Today I AM focused. My Mother's husband, Wayne, made it through surgery with ZERO complications and is recovering nicely. I'm taking THAT part of my morning to get me through the rest of today. (& what a great thing it is! I adore that man!) That is what is going to keep me motivated to keep going and "git 'er done." ..... and I'm turning my phone off.
What do you do when you need to focus and just block out the sucky stuff?